Real Talk!

Day 01: Something you hate about yourself.

For the most part, I’m not a “hater”. In my personal vocabulary “hate” is far too definitive, way too extreme, irreversibly negative... and I have been told that one of my weaknesses is that I haven’t learned to “hate”. Now, if I look at the dictionary definition, I see that it I may be overreacting, somewhat... but then, thinking it over... I suppose I have an extreme aversion to the word hate... the idea of hate... the oppressive use of hate... the culture of hate... hate crimes...

HATE

v. hat•ed, hat•ing, hates
v.tr.
1.
a. To feel hostility or animosity toward.
b. To detest.
2. To feel dislike or distaste for: hates washing dishes.
v.intr.
To feel hatred.
n.
1. Intense animosity or dislike; hatred.
2. An object of detestation or hatred

verb, hat•ed, hat•ing, noun
–verb (used with object)
1.
to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest: to hate the enemy; to hate bigotry.
2.
to be unwilling; dislike: I hate to do it.
–verb (used without object)
3.
to feel intense dislike, or extreme aversion or hostility.
–noun
4.
intense dislike; extreme aversion or hostility.
5.
the object of extreme aversion or hostility.

Synonyms

1. loathe, execrate; despise. HATE, ABHOR, DETEST, ABOMINATE imply feeling intense dislike or aversion toward something. HATE, the simple and general word, suggests passionate dislike and a feeling of enmity: to hate autocracy. ABHOR expresses a deep-rooted horror and a sense of repugnance or complete rejection: to abhor cruelty; Nature abhors a vacuum. DETEST implies intense, even vehement, dislike and antipathy, besides a sense of disdain: to detest a combination of ignorance and arrogance. ABOMINATE expresses a strong feeling of disgust and repulsion toward something thought of as unworthy, unlucky, or the like: to abominate treachery.

While I’m pretty hard on myself... I can’t say that I consistently hate anything about myself... I have had plenty of moments of dislike... but I truly see them as opportunities for self-evaluation and improvement. I have to admit, there are some areas that get revisited more regularly and I suppose they would be characteristics that I find the least attractive in myself. These would include those occasions in which I feel I have talked excessively or times that I feel I might have come across as self-indulgent or boastful... or situations in which I feel I have communicated poorly and been misunderstood... and heaven forbid, if I think I’ve hurt someone.

I never would seek to hurt. I don’t like to disappoint people, including myself. I am particularly disgusted by injustice... that’s something that always gets a rise out of me... I don’t hate that personal trait... but there are times in which I will defend the underdog, to my own detriment- which doesn’t always feel great. Fortunately, I realize nobody is perfect and I forgive easily... maybe too easily... well, sometimes.

I haven't written much lately. I've been editing. & to be honest, the Real Estate World is kind of sad these days. While there is no question that I still feel passion about my work, if I look at the big picture... the industry... I run a gamut of emotions... and... well... mostly, I see red... and it isn't pretty.

When it comes to real estate, I know my stuff. I take it seriously and I am diligent. A Realtor has to be diligent. If I have a weakness, it's probably that I'm not predatory enough... well, let me explain that... I am as aggressive as I want to be. I am assertive when I need to be. I don't chase after listings, I rely mostly on referrals. I had one broker tell me that if I did more to apply myself that I would be one of the giants in the business... and I told him I didn't measure my success by volume. When it comes to real estate, I just want to earn an honest living.

I've thought about my blog- a lot. I've considered some real estate topics but I realize that the components that I may find important may not be of interest to a reader. I find that a lot of people email or call me, with questions... consumers and other real estate practitioners... and I’m always happy to help direct them to the appropriate authority, if I don’t have the answer. I do prefer my email to come to bancroftrealestate@yahoo.ca.

Having found myself at a crossroad when it comes to blog topics, I have decided to take on a challenge. My sister-in-law (Sue St. Clair) has doing a meme that she found on some other blogger’s site... and I have decided to give it a go.

And as Sue says on her blog: http://networkedblogs.com/ewO67

“ If you are reading this please feel free to share your own truths/thoughts in the comment section if you'd like.

And here is the complete list for those who want to try it out.

Thirty Days of Truth list:

Day 01 Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 Someone who made your life h*ll, or treated you like sh*t.
Day 09 Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough *ss days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 Make a playlist, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself ”

So it begins.